It was second snowstorm of the year...
I made you a small snowman last time and I made a bigger one this time. Not as good as Uncle Carreau made for you, but good enough... HOpe you can see it from the above. I also made another 3 smaller ones together. They are mommy, Daddy and you, Janice.
I haven't update here for a month. Not that I forget about you... Janice, how could I forget you?
I have been working out in order to have better health. It seems like still a long way to go. I gained so much weight... maybe keep eating when I misses you... or... just didn't care anymore...
I also started to look for job. Don't know if I should go for any job now, but I guess that is what your Dad wants me to do... so should do it.
Not easy.... really not easy...
Por por and Dad didn't know why I cry so much. They are thinking I shouldn't stay at home... actually, being home is part of my relief... I can be with you (not physically, but mentally)...
Whenever I cry, I feel a tug on my heart... hope this is bcoz you are hugging me... I am thinking how you are kissing me when I am crying, asking mommy not to cry... you are here for me. right?
After you are gone, Cookie is gone too. It is a very big change for por por. I guess we all really can't handle you are in heaven earlier than us. I believe God has his plan on mommy and Daddy.
Whenever I hear the noise upstairs while I am in the kitchen. I hope this is your ghost playing in your room. Janice, isn't it crazy? But I know you are not ghost in our house, but angel in the heaven. I sometimes ask about myself... "What am I thinking?"
Anyway, I gotta go out... I miss you, baby. I miss you Janice.
Mommy misses you so much. Are you looking at me from the above?
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