Almost a week...

It has been almost a week since Janice went back to the arms of Jesus.

It is not easy for me at all. I am sure it is not easy for Kenneth as well. Our emotions are effecting each others. God has his plan on us. I am extremely expressive, and he is extremely high EQ. When things like this happened... Of coz, still have a lot of confusion, questions and most of all, lost...

Kenneth is trying his best to take care of me everyday. I want to give him some space, so I try my best to rest on bed.

People keep telling me that I should rest as much as I can.... it seems like I am doing ok... I lost 19 lbs since Janice was born. I am pumping breast milk for hospital in order to take care of those Sick babies. I eat and drink.... what else...? I don't know... I just want a peace of mind.... really peaceful one...

Knowing friends from HK are sending me flowers.. no wonder I have an order of flowers coming to me this afternoon. I am so lost to a point.... I don't really know what I am doing.... anymore...

There are so many people who try to help me... but when they offer the help. I don't know what kind of help I need. Kenneth doesn't trust others but doint all that for me. I don't like other touch my stuffs including feelings...

Janice, if I tell you I don't miss you... Sorry I lied. Daddy and Mommy miss you every minute. I have a routine to get up every morning around the same time when you used to kick me around.
Janice, I can't use "MISS" to express the feeling towards you.

Janice, We love you very very much. LISTEN.... WE DO! WE DO LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!!!!!!! No matter what happen... our LOVE is still there.... for you... You have fun in Heaven, ok? We will meet you one day. Love you... Love you...